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Bye-bye happy vacation time

January 1st, 2007 at 05:35 am


I've been on vacation the last two and a half weeks (I had a lot of annual leave piled up since I joined my company!).

And tomorrow is going to be my last day of freedom before I go back to the office.

It's been a great two and half weeks. Really great.

And I am absolutely dreading the idea of going back to work.

Start of rant.

During my vacation, I've already checked my work e-mail a few times. I even spent one Sunday working on an urgent thing for a client (I'm a bit of a nut) and read all the stuff my boss wants me to do once I return from vacation.

Which is how I got to know that I'll have a new project on my plate. And that's got me very anxious.

The last project I worked on took me six months to complete and was. a. nightmare.

I'm not afraid of stuff like hard work or late nights at the office, but the project had involved many, many people (mostly higher-ups) from other companies. They made my life very unpleasant and the project near-impossible to complete.

Oh, and I also had to do all this on top of my regular assignments, because it was an ad-hoc thing and we "didn't have enough resources" (i.e. director was too cheap to hire one more person and wanted to make himself look good by cutting costs).

As a result, I was extremely stressed out for half a year. Oftentimes, I felt like a hamster in one of those wheel thingies - never able to stop or catch my breath. This really doesn't help someone who's already naturally high-strung (I am a total Virgo).

It was so bad that I applied for a few jobs and even went to a couple of interviews (in my mind, I was planning my wonderful escape from it all). And the only reason I stayed on was because my direct boss is a really great guy. Most of my colleagues are also nice and I've formed close friendships with some.

But the idea of this new project has got me very anxious now. The bad memories are just flooding back.


p.s: thanks for reading, I really needed to vent.

End of rant.

p.p.s: happy new year to all!

4 Responses to “Bye-bye happy vacation time”

  1. LuxLiving Says:

    Maybe you could share your concerns with the 'great guy boss' before you get too heavy into the new project...just so you have a benchline w/him?

    "Say Jim - this looks intensive and I remember Project Overload - when I hit the wall, what specific things can you do to give me some help? When will I be able to press the panic button? I'm only willing to devote 12 hours a day four days a week to this - I'll have to have some down time this go round."

    Married to a total Virgo myself...if you're anything like him...and you probably are - you take the whole load on your shoulders and are loath to ask for any help.

    Ask for help. Unload a few monkeys to someone else's plate!

  2. Amber Says:

    Take it one day at time, try not to stress so much and I agree with Lux maybe you need to share your concerns. Good luck

  3. PRICEPLUS Says:

    Always good to share concerns with the Boss. It can be very stressful these darn projects but remeber not to personalize it and let it consume you! It is just stuff!

    40 years from now no one will rememeber or care about it. Just take it one day at a time. I know it is easy for me to say sitting here but I have been in situations similar to yours. They really stink.

    I wish you the best of luck and a Happy New Year!Smile

  4. Sindel Says:

    LuxLiving - errr, you're spookily spot on. I tend to vent my frustrations quite openly to my family and friends when I'm stressed out with my job (which helps some...), but I tend to keep mum when I'm in the office. During my last performance review, I did feedback on how I didn't want to be handed large projects anymore, and that was a huge milestone for me (it was literally the first time I've said anything "negative" during a formal review). I've got to un-learn the idea that asking for help equals to some kind of a failure on my part.

    Amber & PRICEPLUS - thanks for giving me more perspective on the matter! It always helps to remind myself to look at the big picture.

    Thank you!

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