So.
I've been on vacation the last two and a half weeks (I had a lot of annual leave piled up since I joined my company!).
And tomorrow is going to be my last day of freedom before I go back to the office.
It's been a great two and half weeks. Really great.
And I am absolutely dreading the idea of going back to work.
Start of rant.
During my vacation, I've already checked my work e-mail a few times. I even spent one Sunday working on an urgent thing for a client (I'm a bit of a nut) and read all the stuff my boss wants me to do once I return from vacation.
Which is how I got to know that I'll have a new project on my plate. And that's got me very anxious.
The last project I worked on took me six months to complete and was. a. nightmare.
I'm not afraid of stuff like hard work or late nights at the office, but the project had involved many, many people (mostly higher-ups) from other companies. They made my life very unpleasant and the project near-impossible to complete.
Oh, and I also had to do all this on top of my regular assignments, because it was an ad-hoc thing and we "didn't have enough resources" (i.e. director was too cheap to hire one more person and wanted to make himself look good by cutting costs).
As a result, I was extremely stressed out for half a year. Oftentimes, I felt like a hamster in one of those wheel thingies - never able to stop or catch my breath. This really doesn't help someone who's already naturally high-strung (I am a total Virgo).
It was so bad that I applied for a few jobs and even went to a couple of interviews (in my mind, I was planning my wonderful escape from it all). And the only reason I stayed on was because my direct boss is a really great guy. Most of my colleagues are also nice and I've formed close friendships with some.
But the idea of this new project has got me very anxious now. The bad memories are just flooding back.
p.s: thanks for reading, I really needed to vent.
End of rant.
p.p.s: happy new year to all!
Bye-bye happy vacation time
January 1st, 2007 at 01:35 pm
January 1st, 2007 at 01:47 pm 1167659237
"Say Jim - this looks intensive and I remember Project Overload - when I hit the wall, what specific things can you do to give me some help? When will I be able to press the panic button? I'm only willing to devote 12 hours a day four days a week to this - I'll have to have some down time this go round."
Married to a total Virgo myself...if you're anything like him...and you probably are - you take the whole load on your shoulders and are loath to ask for any help.
Ask for help. Unload a few monkeys to someone else's plate!
January 1st, 2007 at 05:38 pm 1167673105
January 1st, 2007 at 09:27 pm 1167686876
40 years from now no one will rememeber or care about it. Just take it one day at a time. I know it is easy for me to say sitting here but I have been in situations similar to yours. They really stink.
I wish you the best of luck and a Happy New Year!
January 2nd, 2007 at 05:09 am 1167714556
Amber & PRICEPLUS - thanks for giving me more perspective on the matter! It always helps to remind myself to look at the big picture.
Thank you!